Da Aileen's Code

since i could not post all my thoughts in any of the four blogs i have, i used to write chips of my thoughts in pieces of papers... usually those, thoughts, poems or quotes are the ones whom i treasure the most and those pieces of papers holds the most coveted words i dare no one to know..

few days ago, i wrote the most meaningful short poem that i could wrote. it probably draw the best design of my future. each bit of letters reveals my plan for life. each period, each comma, were wrote with such love and i knew, i wouldn't be able to be that so serious (and poetic, i guess) again.

the fuzz is that due to my stupid carelessness, i lost it. although, i remember few of its compositions, i wouldn't be able to write it all again with such beauty. help me Lord, not to turn unholy.

chunky peanut butter

dumilim ang paligid
may tumawag sa pangalan ko
labing-isang palapag
tinanong kung okey lang ako
sabay abot ng baso
may naghihintay
at bakit ba
'pag nagsawa na ako
biglang ayoko na
at ngayon
di pa rin alam
kung ba't tayo nandito
pwede bang itigil muna
ang pag-ikot ng mundo

waiting shed

bakit ba sa lahat ng bagay na gusto nating makamit kailangan ang paghihintay?
may takdang oras ang bawat pangyayari.
may mga panahong gugulin mo sa parang walang katapusang pagpupursigi.
may oras din para tumigil at umiyak at mag-isip kung back-out na ba.

pero may mga hindi hinihintay ngunit dumarating
parang ulan sa tag-araw. nakakabigla.
sana hindi na matapos.
ngunit dahil hindi siya nakatakda, mawawala na lang ng hindi namamalayan.

natuto na ko.
kahit anumang panahon ang magdaan.
maaalala mo man ako o hindi. hindi na mahalaga.
maghihintay naman ako sa nakalaan.